April 18, 2010
Almost half year he found his new love, my heart still pain and feels like crying soon after I see his picture appears on my wall. Am I emotional because of the incident that my best friend facing now or I still love him? I always imagine that, if we are still attached, what will happen. Am I the one that still live in the past since he was able to walk out from the past? Is it that I don’t want to give up or I cannot make it? After so long, there are few friends still can’t get the reason why we both end up like this. Everyone thinks that I dumped him just because I do not love him anymore. I tried to get a new one and proved to him that I can live without him just like how he doing now. But I end up hurt another guy. I tried so hard but why still end up the same? I really appreciate that he accompanied me when my mum passed away. Therefore I understand Lin’s situation that her bf was not here and she really need a strong support but sadly I can’t do anything for her. What I can do is to give her a call and sms to make her comfort. Lin, be strong. Kay? Your family still needs you. Lin, hope that if you read this blog, my advice to you is, plan properly with your future. I know financial is a big problem for you and you trying hard to bring easy life for your family with few job at one day, but please take care of your health too. Do not make the person that cares and needs you worry about you. Kay? Need any advice can call me or leave a message in my FB inbox.
What is the way to forget this love? This love pushes me to unhealthy lifestyle. Ever since that incident, I get to addict on drinking and clubbing as well as rushing to get a new love. Sometime, I even have bad thought to find the way to split them but I have no right to do that because I will hurt him. To love can be to give. As long as the person that you love happy, you will happy. I really wish to have him back but I can’t force this to be happened. If he meant for me, he will back to me. Write until here, I still cannot find my stand.
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ReplyDeleteI am not sure if you are over the guy mentioned. But I would just like to leave a thought or two with you. Your heart is something so precious and sacred, don't just jump into a relationship and give it away as if it's nothing. Keep this precious heart of yours for one special guy - the one who you want to spend the rest of your life with. Having said all this, we can never truly love until we know what true love is. And to know true love, you need to look for the One who demonstrated the greatest love of all - Jesus. Check out the movie 'Fireproof' if you have the time! :) Warm regards
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