30th August 2009

Last Friday, TMX1010 tutor(M.Hafizan) announced my group proposal is the best among them. It's my job. I'm happy with it. Wee~:) Hope this will also apply on my other assignment. It had been few group assignments I did everything except TITAS because I'm not good at history and Bahasa Malaysia. Their reason to let me do everything is my English better than them. I just got Band 4 in MUET and it's lower grade in it. I divide the job among them, they just gave me their "cut and paste" technique. They cut straight from text book without processing which is the answer. My uncle told me it is good if I got the chance to do everything. I learned. I agree with it, so I will not complain anymore and will praise more to GOD due to HIS work in helping me finish the assignments.

I took few picture of my appartment house without knowing that her "personal stuff" hanging there than I post it and tag her place. She angry at it because her place so messy and I some more tag her in Facebook. Furthermore, her "personal stuff" should be clean before I take the picture. She mentioned the word "lecture". I know I did wrong but she always think that she's right all the time. I can accept when others tell me my mistake but the way she talked to me make me feel I'm not worth to be on this Earth. My pastor told me you can change to better personality but cannot ignore the greatness of GOD create you. HE create you as a very special person in HIS eye. Everything HE take it as very important jewel. I tell you all, do not look down at HIS creation. HE will ask you to pay for it. HIS sons and daughters are not suppose to help GOD punish them. GOD has his way that human will never understand. GOD told his word in Bible that we need to forgive people like how HE forgive us. HE send HIS son, JESUS to pay our depth. Nothing can be greater than this. Therefore, I'm learning how to forgive people all the time. Although forgive one person look easy but when you really do it, you will find out harder than what you expect. With the help of HIM, nothing is impossible.

25th August 2009

Today, I went to Intoduction to Cognitive Science class. The lecturer told us about the assignment need to be pass up next week. OMG!! How can we finish it? This is the first assignment in this subject for first sem of first. After all other assignment of other subjects, I can conclude that leader and english better than the "Sarawakians" is not good. They will ask to do everything with the reason of my english better than them. My lecturer mentioned about majority Chinese is the ethnic that very hardworking logically, Malays came from the word of malas and named by western people, and Indians work in very fast speed and good in debating like lawyers can be suited them definitely.

Another few more like CogLab experiment report, Cognitive Psychology case studies(2), Business mathematics and TITAS test this Friday. I just wish to be a quiet person and lt others in my group do everything but they seem do not care about it. If I do not do anything I also going to get zero for all my assignments. Stress. I hate the life in university because the "M which include the S"so LAZY. I hate the life here because I got not enough sleep and the food here not nice at all. I think I slowly get to what I want to do. I already did my promise which do not bother anything about him and her. Today only the first day, there are so many days after this still. GOD will help me in everything.

I got 9.3 in my EPP role play. I'm happy with it.hee

24th August 2009

It have been so many days that I do not write a post for my diary. What had happend in past few days? Nothing special. Maybe is special for someone but that's not my business anymore. My concern stressful for him. I just care him as a friend. He still think that I will spoil his plan chasing her. He answered that, he has the right to eat alone. What a F*** reason! I will do that to all of my friends. He just same like her, never say "NO" to someone when they do not even want to do it. Whole gang of us do not really like him due to some reason about her, they do not welcome him to join us. But as a friend, I will definitely ask him out because I see he always eating alone. I told him, should not friend me back after our huge fight. I swear I do not want to listen anything about him anymore. This will take time for sure. She always keep telling me about him when I decided not to give him any stress. Is it she just want me to be her listener or want me to jealous about what she able to get but not me. When she in bad mood, better do not go near her and talk to her. She is scary when she in bad mood. Maybe someone like her when she in bad mood. I can accept that if she cannot help if she tell out. I just need some time to accept it. She should tell me honestly if she cannot help. Homesick is not wrong. I always put family and friends first. She will never understand my situation. Luckily, I still have two more close friends that can understand my situation especially her.

Few days more TITAS mid semester test but I just prepare first chapter only. One week break I did nothing other than sleep,eat,watch movie,hang out and assignment(few simle one). At first thought of study and done everything that I should do like finish up all the assignment. At the end, one week break is short and not as long as what I think before last week. At that time, I'm worried on how to pass this long week.