24th August 2009

It have been so many days that I do not write a post for my diary. What had happend in past few days? Nothing special. Maybe is special for someone but that's not my business anymore. My concern stressful for him. I just care him as a friend. He still think that I will spoil his plan chasing her. He answered that, he has the right to eat alone. What a F*** reason! I will do that to all of my friends. He just same like her, never say "NO" to someone when they do not even want to do it. Whole gang of us do not really like him due to some reason about her, they do not welcome him to join us. But as a friend, I will definitely ask him out because I see he always eating alone. I told him, should not friend me back after our huge fight. I swear I do not want to listen anything about him anymore. This will take time for sure. She always keep telling me about him when I decided not to give him any stress. Is it she just want me to be her listener or want me to jealous about what she able to get but not me. When she in bad mood, better do not go near her and talk to her. She is scary when she in bad mood. Maybe someone like her when she in bad mood. I can accept that if she cannot help if she tell out. I just need some time to accept it. She should tell me honestly if she cannot help. Homesick is not wrong. I always put family and friends first. She will never understand my situation. Luckily, I still have two more close friends that can understand my situation especially her.

Few days more TITAS mid semester test but I just prepare first chapter only. One week break I did nothing other than sleep,eat,watch movie,hang out and assignment(few simle one). At first thought of study and done everything that I should do like finish up all the assignment. At the end, one week break is short and not as long as what I think before last week. At that time, I'm worried on how to pass this long week.