Tuesday, April 27, 2010
April 28, 2010
"他不再是我的，我告诉自己别再傻了....曾几何时我们是相爱而且又甜蜜的情侣....现在他已经不再爱我了...曾告诉自己是时候把他忘了...好讨厌现在的自己....无论我做了什么，他还是不曾在我记忆里消失...理论上，我是该把他忘了，再找个新的来疼自己...如果能这么容易就忘了我们曾有过的记忆，那我对他的爱不就是说说而已?我是否该存有一切关于他的记忆??曾试过让自己忙得透不过气，让自己没有时间停下来想他。到最后，更忘不了。稍微有一秒的停顿让我更想念他。曾经有人告诉我，要把一个你所爱的人忘了，就只有两个方法。第一就是让自己忙碌，可我试了还是无效。第二，就是找个人来爱。当我跟他分手后，我就找个比他条件更好的男人来拍拖。相处了一段时间，我发现我更忘不了他。能不能告诉我，到底该怎么办我才能不需像现在这么痛苦？有试过做自己开心的事，笑一笑就会慢慢忘了。但，夜深人静时，我就会开始想起他。身边所有的朋友都觉得我们分手好可惜，甚至有人说我怎么可以这么轻易把他放走。我提出分手只是要他开心，而不是因为我们的关系耽误到他找到比我更好更适合的伴侣。我的朋友都说我该向他解释我的立场。当我要向他说明一切时，他就抢先告诉我他已经找到女友了。我说我还爱着他，我跟他分手都由我自己的原因。又曾试过挽留不过，他的意志好坚定，甚至还叫他的女友说服我放手吧。。当一个人不再爱你了，我就不想勉强她留下了。他甚至还说他愿意当我的性伴侣如果我需要的时候。。我的反应比较慢，也就还跟他的女友谈心事。到现在还是一样。有时，他的女友还向我投诉他们之间的问题。。虽然我的立场不该再跟她有任何瓜葛了，可是整件事上，她没错。过了半年了，他已经走出了我们之间的过去，但我还是活在过去。每当他的照片出现在我的FB wall 我的心情瞬间又因为他而改变了。有些时候，我真的好想告诉他，我不在乎成为他的第二个女友。可是如果我这么做，三个人都会受伤。现在的情况或许对我来讲很痛苦，可至少我已经把伤害降到最低，不是吗？我还是会为了他流眼泪。前天，我做了一个决定。我也不肯定到底对吗。我告诉他，把我的FB delete and block include MSN too..然后，叫他的女友不要再告诉我所有关于他们之间的事情。我告诉他，我没有那个勇气这么做，其实是在我心里，我非常地不想这么做。可是，如果我没这么做，我会疯的。希望他会吧。想想，我跟他分手后，我变得更爱去喝酒，CLubbing and dance...有时，我还傻得认为他会回到我身边。所有人告诉我，如果有一天他回头，我不该接受他了。因为他的爱是如此的不坚持。当时的他，过不了几个星期，他就有了新欢。他为了我流泪一天一夜，我却为他流泪正正两个月。到现在，每当他浮现在我脑海，我的眼泪会不由自主地流下。上帝说过，他所爱的子民的眼泪是为了上帝而哭。或许上帝给我的考验。上帝让我明白什么是真爱。所有上帝未曾答应的爱情都一路不好走。上帝祝福的爱情是会让彼此越爱对方，而且更加的亲近上帝。虽然一路上必有考验，但是只要上帝祝福的爱情，都会一一克服。在这事情上，我学会了“等待”。等待上帝的回应，上帝的安排。
Friday, April 23, 2010
April 24, 2010
"At tis moment, I cry 4 u..Can u feel my pain?Can u c d wound in my heart??u cried 4 our past 1day but I cried for it almost half a year....I knw I should 4get it,but is it so easy s hw u overcome dat??I'm still holding the faith that I'll find some1 dat realy love me n if u r meant 4me, u will back 2me.Both of these faith dat I'm hold still brought me here..But I hav no mor strength to hold it anymore...Perhaps what Zul said was right..Cry out loud helps."
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
April 22, 2010
Saturday, April 17, 2010
April 18, 2010
April 18, 2010
Almost half year he found his new love, my heart still pain and feels like crying soon after I see his picture appears on my wall. Am I emotional because of the incident that my best friend facing now or I still love him? I always imagine that, if we are still attached, what will happen. Am I the one that still live in the past since he was able to walk out from the past? Is it that I don’t want to give up or I cannot make it? After so long, there are few friends still can’t get the reason why we both end up like this. Everyone thinks that I dumped him just because I do not love him anymore. I tried to get a new one and proved to him that I can live without him just like how he doing now. But I end up hurt another guy. I tried so hard but why still end up the same? I really appreciate that he accompanied me when my mum passed away. Therefore I understand Lin’s situation that her bf was not here and she really need a strong support but sadly I can’t do anything for her. What I can do is to give her a call and sms to make her comfort. Lin, be strong. Kay? Your family still needs you. Lin, hope that if you read this blog, my advice to you is, plan properly with your future. I know financial is a big problem for you and you trying hard to bring easy life for your family with few job at one day, but please take care of your health too. Do not make the person that cares and needs you worry about you. Kay? Need any advice can call me or leave a message in my FB inbox.
What is the way to forget this love? This love pushes me to unhealthy lifestyle. Ever since that incident, I get to addict on drinking and clubbing as well as rushing to get a new love. Sometime, I even have bad thought to find the way to split them but I have no right to do that because I will hurt him. To love can be to give. As long as the person that you love happy, you will happy. I really wish to have him back but I can’t force this to be happened. If he meant for me, he will back to me. Write until here, I still cannot find my stand.
Almost half year he found his new love, my heart still pain and feels like crying soon after I see his picture appears on my wall. Am I emotional because of the incident that my best friend facing now or I still love him? I always imagine that, if we are still attached, what will happen. Am I the one that still live in the past since he was able to walk out from the past? Is it that I don’t want to give up or I cannot make it? After so long, there are few friends still can’t get the reason why we both end up like this. Everyone thinks that I dumped him just because I do not love him anymore. I tried to get a new one and proved to him that I can live without him just like how he doing now. But I end up hurt another guy. I tried so hard but why still end up the same? I really appreciate that he accompanied me when my mum passed away. Therefore I understand Lin’s situation that her bf was not here and she really need a strong support but sadly I can’t do anything for her. What I can do is to give her a call and sms to make her comfort. Lin, be strong. Kay? Your family still needs you. Lin, hope that if you read this blog, my advice to you is, plan properly with your future. I know financial is a big problem for you and you trying hard to bring easy life for your family with few job at one day, but please take care of your health too. Do not make the person that cares and needs you worry about you. Kay? Need any advice can call me or leave a message in my FB inbox.
What is the way to forget this love? This love pushes me to unhealthy lifestyle. Ever since that incident, I get to addict on drinking and clubbing as well as rushing to get a new love. Sometime, I even have bad thought to find the way to split them but I have no right to do that because I will hurt him. To love can be to give. As long as the person that you love happy, you will happy. I really wish to have him back but I can’t force this to be happened. If he meant for me, he will back to me. Write until here, I still cannot find my stand.
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